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When We Feared Fear
Itself
by Earl Coleman
They must have talked before
she served,
now silent as in church,
us poor as mice, wiped out.
He quit the dinner table,
lips shut tight. Floors creaked,
and then the porch door banged.
Mom, eyes closed, head bowed,
knowing something, leaving it to him.
I couldnt. Thirteen. Walked outside.
The red eye of his cigarette
directed me. The autumn night
was flung about with stars.
I sat beside him on the swing.
Whats wrong, pop? Can I help?
He took a puff;
the glow lit up brown pupils
where the world went up in smoke.
A man. I owe a debt.
Hell be here soon. Go in.
An hour afterward
I hadnt heard a noise
but knew to put my algebra aside.
The two of them were at the sink,
his head thrown back. The blood
came faster than she sponged it off,
bright red. He didnt say a word,
just suddenly put up a hand
to hold the room in place,
and spit two shiny teeth, that rattled
when they hit the porcelain.
I put my arm around his waist,
his solid waist, his shirt
all wet with water and his blood.
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